Insurance; Appointment; Dead Battery; Want; Panic Attacks

Monday, I sent off a copy of mother's power of attorney to the insurance company. I'd called the previous week to ask about a claim but was told since I was not the insuree, they could not reveal any information. And would need the power of attorney indicating that I had the authority to handle her affairs. Oh for heaven's sake!

This in turn relates back to their request for information on mother's fall in February. I remember seeing the form but did not do anything with it. Then I got a bill from the hospital indicating that their claim to the insurance company has been rejected because the insurance company did not have the appropriate information. Once I noticed this, I backtracked and completed the form. In fact, my call to the insurance company was to see if this form had been processed.

Monday, I also sent off responses to two additional requests for information on her fall in February. They wanted to know if it was work related. in which cases the claim would go to worker's comp. Of if it happened on someone else's property, in which case the claim would go to that person's home insurance. The first request for information was from the hospital for the stay in early March; the second was from the nursing home for the stay starting March 10; and the third was from a physician who saw her on May 10 in the emergency room on the second trip to the hospital.

I certainly hope all this will works out.

As I've indicated before, I don't even know which questions to ask.

"Has he given up? Does he want to die? Is that what it comes down to? No. The question is false. He does not want to slash his wrists, does not want to swallow down four and twenty Somnex, does not want to hurl himself off the balcony. He does not want death, because he does not want anything."

Presented without comment.

After enduring about ten commercials and an equal number of trailers, I could feel an irresistible desire to flee taking control of my brain. So I slipped out of my seat and down the steps and out the door.

Over the years, I've had what I now recognize as severe panic attacks. Just as this one hit this afternoon, I remembered one from the first grade. I could feel that terrible sense of panic and confusion as though it had happened a few minutes ago.

The events that trigger the attacks are of several kinds. One is any situation in which I feel psychologically trapped. Usually involving something, directly or indirectly, I've caused to happen. Another relates to crowded events - parties, movies, etc. I literally feel I can't get enough air. And there are those in which I feel overwhelmed by the psychic energy of those around me. The energy is not so much negative as unenlightened.

PAX!