Stress; Mother; Emotionally Depleted; Hacked Paradise; Courtyard

Sunday, I rested. In fact, I did not leave the house. And I tried to think only good thoughts. My throat felt better, but I kept holding my breath in fear that it would start hurting again.

Yesterday, I began without a problem, but as the day meandered along, my throat began to ache. By late afternoon, I was almost in pain. But when I got home, it felt better.

Last night, I finally began to put some puzzle pieces together and realized that the achy throat has to be stress related.

So today, I went to the clinic and shared my idea with the doctor. He suggested a muscle relaxant. When I got home, I took one, and I think I'm beginning to notice some difference.

Maybe with this, the acid reflux medicine, and a renewal of Wellbutrin, there will be a positive change in the chemical levels.

I've always felt like I was living on an emotional edge, and that a move in the wrong direction would cause problesm. And somewhere in the last year, that has happened. And I've not been aggresive enough in fighting it.

When I'm there, I'm on stage. Smiling at the workers. Saying hello to the residents. Waving at folks. But once I leave I feel emotionally depleted.

Usually at work, I'll listen to Radio Paradise. But this morning, their home page had been hacked. The resulting page was my someone for which English is definitely a second language.

"hey admin fuck u and Usa Government all fuck ! all amrican ! fuck bush Mother fucker ! ~~~~~~ActionSpider@Linuxmail.org ~~~~~:(

For what War ? Tell Me !!! For What ... bush u kill child it is nice for u ? yeah :( fuck :(("

I'm sure it would neveve have gotten build if it had been in the downtown area. But in a wooded area several miles away, there was less concern for a traditional approach - Greek columns.

PAX!