contours provocations - 2004-1102

contours provocations
journal - 2004-1102 - tue 2000

Insomnia; Cats; Depression; Selling

Last night was another one of those marked by insomnia. It was after 1 before I dozed off. And the cats woke me at 5. Of course, to them, it was really 6, so I should have been up and about.

This afternoon I felt drained, so as soon as I got home, I took a very restful nap.

A clutch of outside kitties have decided I'm a soft touch for putting out food. When I open the kitchen door in the morning, several of them tumble in as though they been leaning against the door. Then there's an incredible amount of running around looking for snacks.

The second I put something on the steps, everybody zips out. Well most of the time. Last week, I came home from work and found one sitting on the kitchen floor looking slightly peeved. I'm amazed at how laid-back the inside felines have been about these intruders. Apparently, there was no disharmony with the visitor.

One of the inside group though is capable of a glare that Bea Arthur would be proud of. When the outside bunch charge in, he glances at them with what can only be called utter disdain.

For the last month, I've been plagued with depression that has been nastier than usual. I'm sure there's a direct correlation between feeling fatigued and feeling unusally depressed. Now if I can just figure out to avoid that.

Over the weekend, I started spreading the antidepressants out during the day. Instead of taking everything in the morning, I'm taking one then, another at lunch, and the remainder in the evening. I actually think there may be some benefit in this.

The business of selling books at Amazon has almost hit a brick wall. I get maybe one or two orders a week. A far cry from the dozens of orders I was getting in the spring.

Amazon lists items for 60 days, then they have to be re-newed. When one needs renewing, if there are copies listed for the same book for less than a dollar, I don't renew. It's not worth it. With the expense of postage and purchasing the envelopes, I lose money.

However, I've begun listing CDs. And that market is better. I just hope it doesn't vanish too.

PAX!