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contours provocations
journal - 2001-0613 - wed 2130 Boyfriends, Slouching, Ski Mask? Two friends have ended a long-standing relationship. I've known each since before they knew each other, and was there when they first met. One had recently moved away to take a new job, but I'd sensed that there might be more to it than that. And he has met someone new. Certainly not a novel event in the scheme of things. It may be that certain relationships have a designated lifespan. Sorta of a planned obsolescence. But this may be preferable to one that attempts to linger beyond its time. Curiously enough over the weekend, I had dinner with two friends who have just started a relationship. At one time, one of them and I had made an effort at being boyfriends. But our expectations were different, and we became boy friends instead. The new partner seems a good match. And I wish them "shelter from the storm." I've slouched through the week. Sunday night, I slept so poorly that Monday morning I almost dozed off at work; even came home at lunch and took a nap. Last night, I couldn't sleep, so I slugged back to the living room and got caught up in watching "More Tales of the City." After 30 minutes or so, I realized I'd never seen it. So I stayed with it longer than I should have. Today, I stumbled through work, and when I got home I tried to nap to no avail. Grumble! Grumble! Grumble! This evening, I forced myself to deal with checks and bills. And car insurance. And quotes for car insurance. All very tiresome. Depending on how you look at it, I think I'll be able to pay everything and make it to the end of the month. Or it could be that I'll need to give blood, take in laundry and stand on the corner selling apples. "Alms for the poor, kind lady!" (Hmmm! I wonder if there's a liquor store nearby. Hey! Anybody know where my ski mask is?) PAX!
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